queen of anxiety & procrastination

When it comes to exercise I play this really bizarre mind game with myself. I do almost anything and everything to avoid it. I spend hours playing games with myself. It is now 4 30 in the afternoon. I decided that I can only do exercise first thing when I wake up ( when I am off from work ) or right after work. I have had off due to the snow storms here in NY and guess what? I have played a constant game with myself all day long. I wish I had a damn physcology degree. What is up with me??!!! I have this deep seeded thing in myself where I like to accomplish several things in one day but I always leave a loose end somewhere. I will clean the whole house from top to bottom but leave one room. That sort of thing. I think I spend a lot of time, too much time, feeling sorry for myself. For what? I hate complainers and I hate people who moan when they have no real problems. Why should I be any different? Why don't I hold myself up to the same thing I hate. Really I am too hard on myself. I do many great and wonderful things in my home and for my kids. I always think because I am fat that they don't matter but they do. Well.... this was another way for me to avoid exercising by blogging here with you. I am going to get off now and I think I will do it. Let's see. I'll let ya' know!