Not to shabby-I did it!

I have no idea why the thought of walking, just walking, not running a marathon , doing a spin class or building the Brooklyn Bridge, W-A-L-K-I-N-G!!! Makes me feel as if I have to lift a BARGE to get up and do it. I did it! I kept thinking and thinking and after awhile I started to feel guilty. Nothing wrong with that! I put it into words here that I wanted to move today and guess what? Those words stuck in my head like lead and the guilt of not doing it weighed ( no pun intended ) on me like a brick! I just wanted to post here that I drank my water and walked. Eating day was okay. Nothing to write home about...

Being full doesn't seem to matter...

I noticed something strange and different yesterday after eating. I noticed that I am full pretty quickly but that I pay NO attention to this and keep eating. I like to eat until I am stuffed and NOT full. BIZARE! What is that all about? I can't just be full. I don't stop then. I eat and eat until my belly feels full and I feel sort of numb... even achy. It's almost like being high! Did I just say that??????????? I don't even get high! Perhaps tipsy... I think yes, that's a better word. I IGNORED my discovery yesterday. Just put it right out of my mind. Nothing that small was going to stop me from my constant denial! Well, it hit me again today. I should say, tonight.I started to eat my dinner. I don't think it was the greatest dinner but it was fine. I had an egg roll and half an egg drop soup ( the small container ).Soup was bland and awful by the way. For the first time I didn't finish something when I did not really enjoy it.So after the egg roll and a few minutes into the soup I was full! It's quite the let down. Number one because I don't know what in heck to do with myself when I am full so quickly. Who stops eating and or just gets up or just continues to sit there and have a nice conversation with whoever she is with? Who does not just aimlessly shove? I know I don't and hence my reason for writing this blog!I need to find other things to do at this point. The soup was bland and I ate half. I will admit I was hungry right before dinner so anything in front of me, that was somewhat within the realm of what I like was going to be eaten. Being that the soup did not fill me I needed a 'sweet' to make me feel "okay" about the whole dining experience. I ate one chips ahoy. Not a big deal right? then I started to pick on the delicious chinese noodles they give you. I needed the kick. I needed just the right thing.....I ate some and then realized I was eating for no apparent reason and therefor I stopped. These are the things I really need to focus on. I have not completed my 3 glasses of water task I had set out to do today. I am going to head upstairs and get them down all in one shot. I have some cleaning to do and will somehow get in 30 minutes of exercise. It is already 7:21 and I have made every excuse in the book as to why I can't. I will. You'll SEE! :P

Lethargy, Baguettes and stuff

I do not sleep right. My husband likes to fall asleep with the TV on and I need total silence and it to be pitch black! He is usually pretty good with not turning that junk box on. If he goes up before me though ( and that means it is late!) well then iv'e lost out. I went to bed late while listening to the television. Not good! I notice that I wake up every morning NOT energized ( and this is not because the television is on because some/most nights it is not). Is this normal? Many times I wake up and immediately say " thank you" in my mind for several things. I have to pay attention whether or not this effects my getting up and moving. I did not profess 'thanks' today. I want to find ways of feeling more energized. Calming down, thinking more positively, praying and or meditating can help. Work... work... work Elisa, you can do this!!

The picture above was my breakfast. I am addicted to carbs. Truth is that they are delicious to me and ( almost embarrassed to admit this ) they are so QUICK to eat! No preparation, nothing! There are some alternatives for my breakfast, I know this, that are not too hard to prepare. We'll see. I eat everything dry. I don't add butter or cream cheese to anything.I have a feeling that eating these carbs in the morning would not be a big deal if I were to add more water and move everyday. Hmmmmm.....another thing to focuson/think about!

I am going to focus today on drinking 3 full glasses of water and moving for at least 30 minutes. These two things seem VERY simple. To me however? They feel like a challenge. I WILL work on this and I CAN accomplish it.

I am looking forward to changing. I am looking forward to exercising. I am looking forward to all of my endless possibilities.