Being full doesn't seem to matter...

I noticed something strange and different yesterday after eating. I noticed that I am full pretty quickly but that I pay NO attention to this and keep eating. I like to eat until I am stuffed and NOT full. BIZARE! What is that all about? I can't just be full. I don't stop then. I eat and eat until my belly feels full and I feel sort of numb... even achy. It's almost like being high! Did I just say that??????????? I don't even get high! Perhaps tipsy... I think yes, that's a better word. I IGNORED my discovery yesterday. Just put it right out of my mind. Nothing that small was going to stop me from my constant denial! Well, it hit me again today. I should say, tonight.I started to eat my dinner. I don't think it was the greatest dinner but it was fine. I had an egg roll and half an egg drop soup ( the small container ).Soup was bland and awful by the way. For the first time I didn't finish something when I did not really enjoy it.So after the egg roll and a few minutes into the soup I was full! It's quite the let down. Number one because I don't know what in heck to do with myself when I am full so quickly. Who stops eating and or just gets up or just continues to sit there and have a nice conversation with whoever she is with? Who does not just aimlessly shove? I know I don't and hence my reason for writing this blog!I need to find other things to do at this point. The soup was bland and I ate half. I will admit I was hungry right before dinner so anything in front of me, that was somewhat within the realm of what I like was going to be eaten. Being that the soup did not fill me I needed a 'sweet' to make me feel "okay" about the whole dining experience. I ate one chips ahoy. Not a big deal right? then I started to pick on the delicious chinese noodles they give you. I needed the kick. I needed just the right thing.....I ate some and then realized I was eating for no apparent reason and therefor I stopped. These are the things I really need to focus on. I have not completed my 3 glasses of water task I had set out to do today. I am going to head upstairs and get them down all in one shot. I have some cleaning to do and will somehow get in 30 minutes of exercise. It is already 7:21 and I have made every excuse in the book as to why I can't. I will. You'll SEE! :P