Here are two reasons that anything good and productive have started in my life. My children. I am striving to be a better person to leave a legacy for them. I have to focus on me and my well being as I know this will only make my childrens lives better. Focus Elisa, focus! You can do this!

Went out East yesterday and had a beautiful time. I was with an aunt who I just can't figure out sometimes, who gets very moody at the drop of a dime and talks heavily about how bad her life is , how hurt she is, how unhappy she is and how awful certain people are and what everyone in the world has done to her. If I allow it I can slip in a deep and dark depression while being with her but I did pretty well. I tried to be encouraging while staying positive. All in all it worked out. My kids had a wonderful time and I kept my eating pretty much under control. I did not drink enough water yesterday.

Today will be very busy. I am going to head upstairs now and sit on the couch with no one around to meditate for 5 minutes this time. Let's see if I can do it. This seems to be the only way to calm my inner, racing dialogues! I have to make coffee and start my day. I will be in and out. I want to exercise but for some reason I am not doing it. I am making every stinking excuse in the book! Why? I will drink my water. Although I don't love drinking water it does make me feel better, my mind thinks better and I feel as if I am doing something good for my body.

I want to get into the state of mind of knowing infaticaly ( not sure how to spell this?) that I must put myself first. I must put myself first in order to be healthy and much happier. I need to KNOW that my happiness and well being will bring joy and happiness to my children and to my family in general. "If momma' aint happy no one is happy!" :) This is my focus today. I will try hard to put myself first.

I am able to accomplish all good things in my life, there is abundance in the world for me and I am going to relish and experience first hand the joys and goodness every minute of life....There is nothing, plain and simple that I cannot acomplish.

Things I am proud of:

my ability to sell so well on Ebay

passing two certification tests after being out of the loop for years! I did this all within 6 months

being so close to filing for permanent certification

my job

my job come September

my ability to get so many things done in a day

my compassion